Friday, June 26, 2009

Doa

Got an interesting msg on my FB. "Semuga sembuh cepat Bro...provided you keep your dua's in Arabic...in English it will lagging/delay a bit."

Hello..... What crap is this? Allah have made us and from there, we have our languages. Now, why do Arabic will get the preferences when you put your hands up asking for forgiveness or maybe for giving us rezeki after we worked hard towards achieving it? Does these people understand that what is important is the heart and soul understanding what you are doing and reacting. I admit I can read the Arabic and Jawi but I didn't have the opportunity to understand every single words. I read from the translation. The keyword is UNDERSTANDING. If we just ameen to words we don't understand, don't you feel odd of saying aye to some words that you can't make head or tails of it. I am not saying we should not learn it. I picked up some words so I can understand what is being said in Arabic but to recite back a doa, I'll be murmuring a long the way. I rather said in Malay because I understand it and if there are makmums, they understand it too.



So to the less unfortunate that didn't had the opportunity to learn Arabic, don't panic. Doa in a language you understand. It gives you that feeling of repentance if you want to cleanse your heart and soul, the feeling of thankfulness when you want to thank Allah for the rezeki He brings to us and the feeling of serenity when you doa for the life you are having. When you doa, it goes direct to Him, there is no third party involved. It is just you and the alMighty. So, if I said it in Malay, does Allah understand what I am saying. You know the answer.

So, go ahead. Doa in the language you know what you asking, giving or just gratefulness. But if you have the luxury to learn Arabic, learn it and use it. But you must understand what you saying.

LOLZ What a message to receive in a wee morning of 5.20 am.

This is a ceramah by an American preacher..... (It is more on the heart)




Monday, June 08, 2009

I just simply can't sleep

The whole family is enjoying their holidays in Terengganu and I have to stay back because of some work need to be delivered this week. I knocked off right after Asar and woke up just before Isyak. Went out to buy some food - Soto and kueh apam. Got back and started to work on the long past due video project. I was doing it till Subuh. Then I realised I was still fresh. Lying down was not helping at all. I did some chores and went out to buy my bandages and plaster. Opps cash has run out.

Went back and thought I can knocked myself out. I still can't sleep. By 2pm, I was feeling a bit groggy and wanted to lie down. My handphone rang and my future client wanted a quotation el pronto. Oh No, the grogginess is gone.

If the client like the pricing I made. I'll be OK for the next 4 months. Please, Ya Allah, Open his heart to take my quote.

Now, I just took the bandages off, the wound is bleeding profusely. I just wipe it off, took a bath and self-bandage myself.

After a good bath, now I am starting to feel groggy again. Hope there is no more phone calls. I need to sleep.

Ahhh. Now it is raining. A nice mood to doze off or should I wait for Maghrib?

Ouch.......

-bob

Saturday, June 06, 2009

Saka My Story - Chapter Three

"Tuhanlah sahaja yang mengetahui segala yang ghaib, maka Ia tidak memberitahu perkara ghaib yang diketahuiNya itu kepada sesiapapun, "

"(He Alone) the All-Knower of the Gha'ib (unseen), and He reveals to none His Gha'ib (unseen)."

Surah Al-Jinn: Verses 26

There were many occurrences that it is not normal and mind-boggling to the human minds. But then this world is not created for us only. Apart from the bacteria, wild-life, germs and God knows what. There are also iblis, satan or jin. These three are not in the human forms but they can appear to be looking just like us. For the malays, we are to be made known of a community that is unseen, which are orang bunian. They are said to live in a parallel world akin to ours. They look the same but we just don't see them unless using certain methods or the person is given the sight. The scientific world defines people who see these people are either hallucinating or having schizophrenia. During the period when the abilities was at its peak, I tend to see these people with my eyes close. Most of them are dressed in beautiful malay dressings with head dress and the ladies always use batik sarong to cover their head. But not all dressed as this. I do see them wearing just white clothing. Sometimes they appear to shape as human but the images is so blurry that you can't make out how they look like.

When was my first time with the unseen? Actually, I can't recalled. When I was a kid, I don't really believe the existence of the unseen. To me at that time, it is just my hallucinations or when the mind started to think of eerie things, then we will see them. When I stayed in my grandfather's house in the early 80s, I was the only one sleeping on the second floor. The house was Perak designed, had 13 windows and 6 rooms on the upper level. The ground floor have 3 rooms. The whole family slept on the ground floor. My late mother once told me that she slept on the right master room on the upper floor, there she was once stepped by something on her thigh and the mark of a footprint still can be seen till the day she died. She never goes upstairs. While on the left master room, after my late youngest uncle got married, they saw a head with red eyes was floating near the ceiling. They too never slept again on that floor.

Since I was a teenager, 13 at that time. I wanted privacy. So I took the room at the back near the backstairs. I will do my homework at the upper level living room and I was then "lurus bendul" on the unseen stuff. I remembered a full painting of my Mak Itam at the left corner of the living room. Everytime I goes upstairs, I always noticed the eyes was like followed to where I go. I just ignored it and always said out loud, "Alah, just my imagination." To cast my fears away, I will play my uncle LPS on his tabletop. And everytime I feel uneasy I will sing out loud to the tunes. But one thing I noticed was there will be a very strange tone to my ears exactly when the old clock chimed to 9 pm and midnight. Alhamdulillah, for 2 years, I see nothing though I do heard something at the ceiling or the back of the upper level. I just put that to rats, squirrels, foxes or just bats. I moved to the house my Dad built at the end of 1983.

When I entered ITM, I was the same me, a lurus bendul to the unseen. After broken up in a relationship in Part Three, I wanted privacy. So almost every Saturday and Sunday, I will go to the level and chose a room at the end of the corridor, opposite the library to study. I will bring enough snacks and drinks and will be there until 11pm. Yes, I do heard people coming in and out of classes when there was nobody around. I heard footsteps but there was no one. Door slamming, knocking and even the sound of a door being unlocked. I simply put to the theory of the wall absorbed the sound and at certain times will bounced back the noise. I simply put it there was no ghost. The guards whom patrolled the corridors always said I was crazy. I was a sceptic and at that time, put aside all strange things to a scientific deductions.
And yes, the centre elevator of the building will always opened at Level 6 and it is always pitch-black, my hair will never fail to stand every time it opened. I just put that it is just the elevator system having a malfunction to cast away my fears.

And, when I was doing Research and Statistics, we went to do the survey in Terengganu. When we had a breather, Rohan wanted to visit his relatives and I tagged along. We walked through Jalan Pusara at 10pm and came out at the other end almost 11pm. Who was at the stall in the middle of the graveyard whom you can't see their faces but I know there was a lady and three men sitting sipping their drinks. The next day, I passed through the same road on a motorcycle going at a very slow pace and clocked only 5 minutes. Why did it takes so long when we were almost like running and there was no stall when we thought there was one?

And, I stayed on 1411 when I was in Part Six. Little that I known that time the room upstairs was not occupied and the sound I heard of was not man-made. I only know about it after I've joined AMC and the story was related by my super-duper seniors. It was said that a student from that room trying to escape fell to his death and the room was haunted till today.

When I was working at a computer company in Jalan Telawi, Bangsar. It was on the second floor above England Opticals. I practically sleep at the office while doing my work and research. One particular night around 2 am, I was still at the studio working on some multimedia work on the PowerMac Quadra 950. The studio was at the back located right beside the restrooms. Suddenly the light in the restroom started to blink incessantly. It was bothering my concentration, so I walked to switch off the light. When I looked at the display area, all the lights was on, all the windows ajar and all the computer was switched on. Even the main door was opened wide. As I recalled, I have closed every window and switched off everything in the front area. In my first thought it was the boss younger brother pulling a prank on me. So I yelled his name and said it was not funny. When I have done, I continued my work. A few minutes later, the restroom light blinked incessantly again. This time I felt something different as I have switched it off. I walked again to switch it off. I looked to the front and saw the whole display area lit up and the computer was being started up. The hair stands up. I just slowly closed back everything and picked up my helmet and went home. LOLZ The next day, I asked the boss brother and he said he didn't come to the office last night. He then told me about the office. He never stayed back because of one night while he was making out, the studio suddenly was alive with the drums, guitars and keyboard being played. When he checked the studio, there was no one. Alhamdulillah, that was my only occurrences. Maybe they got fed up with me ignoring them and continued staying back and even sleep at the office. There was no more occurrences.
To me at that time, the unseen do exist but to quashed my fear, I put reasoning to cast away my fears. And if something odd happened, I just walked away. Or my lurus bendul attitude towards the unseen save the day. he he he.

But one incidence really spooked me up. It was my first time seeing the unseen through my closed eyes, I was 24 (25 by year), still young and oblivious to the unseen. . It was 1994 in Kuala Berang, Terengganu and I have no understanding of the unseen at the time. I have been sending my girlfriend to her parent house and the family welcome my presence. Well, they later become my in-laws. During that time, my girlfriend's younger brothers and sister had thalassemia. Their parent tried many methods to cure them apart from the monthly blood transfusion. One of their relatives was a medicine woman and lived in Kuala Berang and they wanted to see whether she can help.

So when I came, they took me along to the place. They told me that the husband whom had only been to Makkah can speak any language you throw at him. It created an interest in me to see it for myself. When we arrived, the family went in. I stayed outside and the brothers introduced me to the husband and I took the liberty to ask him in my rusty French. I asked "Tu parlez le francais?" He answered "Oui." I asked what is his name. And he start to speak in French, though it is very toned with the Terengganu slang. But he actually speak French. I was dumbfounded. I asked him in Malay how can he speak the language. He said when a person speak in other language, he can simply understand and he speak as if to him, he is speaking Malay. He said that he can understand and speak any language after he had a dream that his internal organs was taken out, cleansed and put back in. He then continued to tend his orchard.

Since it is a bit windy even though the sun is bright, I still don't want to enter the house. So I sat with the brothers to get to know them better. The brothers; aruah Tarmizi and Bukhory was very chatty. We talked a lot about toys and miniature models. Then suddenly a topic came out about orang bunian. They claimed since they were young, they always see the orang bunians. They even related that were once saved by these orang bunians when the van they were in skidded into a canal and sunk. All passed out but when they came to their senses, they were lying side by side wet at the side road and there are no one around. I just laughed and said "ye ke?" They continued saying that these orang bunians looks like us, dressed like us but they have more advance technology than us. They lived in a high rise, right like the one on that hill. They pointed to the hill right in front of me. I suddenly felt a goose-bump up my neck and hands. Being 12 and 13 at the time, they even said they played with the orang bunians PlayStation and it was more advance than Sony PS One. I just laughed. But then I suddenly stood up and said, "Jom, masuk, ada orang nak datang." I felt a bit weird to even saying that word.

When I put a step into the house, immediately there was a loud thunder and the wind blew really hard. The bright afternoon suddenly darkened in a matter of seconds. Inside the house, the medicine woman screamed and I saw her slapped my girlfriend's father arm. I felt so weird inside the house but then I just sit down facing her. She continued to speak to the mother and father. I was not paying attention to what she was saying as I felt so uneasy. She then closed her eyes and when she opened it, she will start to give instruction or explaining on something.

I felt a sudden urge to press my left toe hard. And when I did that, I closed my eyes. There right beside her, I saw a person wearing a green robe and green serban with a yellow lining on it. The person look more like a caucasian. I immediately opened my eyes and saw nothing. I closed my eyes again and there he is again. So I keep closing and opening my eyes, disbelieving what I am seeing at that moment. The person was whispering to the medicine woman while she was closing her eyes. And when he finished whispering, she started to talk. The situation is like a chipsmore ad,"Now you see it, now you don't."

I was a bit in a shock and didn't say a word about it. But I do remembered I was sweating profusely. When the mother start asking about me, I closed my eyes and see the person was looking at me and smiling. I wanted to just get out of the house but I don't want to insult my girlfriend's family. I kept quite throughout the whole session. Startled, stunned, dumbfounded at the situation.
When we left the house, I sat at the back of the van with the brothers. I asked,

"Siapa orang yang pakai jubah hijau tadi, Mami?"

The father immediately stopped the van and everyone looked at me suprised.

I asked, "Kenapa?"

The mother asked "Mu nampak orang pakai jubah kat rumah tadi."

I replied, "Ha ah, kenapa?"

The mother just said, "Takpe, kat rumoh kita cerite."

Once we reached home, the mother told me that it is a strange thing for a person to be able to see the green robe person. He will usually appear in the dreams after they visited the medicine woman. All of them had that dream and felt strange why I can see it there and then. The mother suddenly said she has a pain on her arm. I immediately asked the brothers to bring me coconut oil, salt and onion. I mixed it and squashed the onions and passed it to her. She just smiled and asked how do I know this is the remedy. I was taken aback for I don't really know. I just simply know and reacted to ask for it without thinking. And I suddenly realised she was testing me.

The mother and I had a long chat where she relates her background and who was the person I saw at the house. She said the person was actually the son of the medicine woman. When she gave birth, a white snake was delivered together with a baby. The baby disappeared right in front of her eyes. She had a dream the previous night that a person came to her and told her that she will have a twin. One of the twin will be taken care by them and the other one, she must take care regardless how the baby look. So, she tend to the snake and even gave her milk to it. After a few months, she had another dream that a person told her that the snake must be let go at a river for it will have a task to do. She did what she was told and the husband took the snake to the river. The snake speak to the husband to make sure his mother not to worry for they can see him as the bridge between Pulau Duyong and the mainland. Allahuallam, to believe this story was too far-fetched for me but I kept quite. After that day, I got closer to the mother.

A few months later on my next trip, I asked for the hands of my girlfriend. She openly accepted me and so does the whole family. I got engaged and married my girlfriend on 10 Syawal 1995. The mother is now my mother-in-law. The brothers died a few years later. Tarmizi passed away at the age of 17 and Bukhory followed a few months later at the age of 16. The sister died at the age of 21, a few months after my mother passed away. The medicine woman and the husband also had passed away in the late 90s.

At that time, I was always a sceptic on these paranormal things. I tend to believe at that time there were ghost and ghouls. I don't disturb them, and I hoped they won't disturb me. But things is not to be like what I hoped. I came across many occurrences. Crossing path with the unseen was too often and I am lucky I can't see them with my eyes. Though at certain times, they do appeared from nowhere. Terima je lah.

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

Wound is bleeding

I don't know whether I should hit the panic button or be happy. My wound is bleeding profusely now, as far as I see it the nerve is rebuilding itself causing the blood to flow out from the wound. Body a bit weaken but I am still have a strong mind. The swollen due to water retention has reduced remarkably. Movement is a bit restricted because after 12 months, my right left always felt numb, I now feeling pain. The wound as my wide sees it is a beaut.  Clean wound. Alhamdulillah.

Apart from that, my social life will be restricted and I know I won't be able to direct any videos for the next few weeks till my wound recover. I am stuck to doing post production. My corporate video I directed is completed but I felt I won't see the balance payment coming as the client has left the country. Hope he remember to pay up. :-(. But then rezeki is always there, I did the concept idea using 3D for Orang Kampong. And they buy it and create a 3D animation ad. I did not do it because I lack character animation. I did the VO (My voice),  music composition and sound effects. Will upload for all to see in my youtube. find bobazhar69. All my video stuff is in there. he he he And still await payment. Hope this one also not leaving the country too LOLZ

Another work is doing CGI and Visual Effects for the film Cyber-X. Hope the client happy with the idea to make his movie interesting.


Till then 
-bob